Yes I cried.
People told me that I was strong, my answer to that was "Well I dont think so, look at me". Later that night I was crying aswell. Not what I've planned but deep down I knew it would be like that. Still they said I was strong, strong to be there in the first place.
I can see what they mean now, sure I didnt at the time since my cheeks were wet with tears. But honestly it was strongly made by me to get there and face my problem. I knew it was going to be hard and I knew I was going to feel pain, still I came to celebrate my friend.
Truth to be told I was scared. I wanted to come and at the same time I didnt. But in the end I realized that you cant live life and ignore the hard parts. I knew that I hade to face you one day or another. The sooner the better. So if I had to choose between the two of us, then I would say that Im the strong one. Just because I didnt hide from it.
I can see what they mean now, sure I didnt at the time since my cheeks were wet with tears. But honestly it was strongly made by me to get there and face my problem. I knew it was going to be hard and I knew I was going to feel pain, still I came to celebrate my friend.
Like you said (but about something else); it will end sooner or later anyway and its better it ends sooner. So I wont ignore you and the reason is that we got friends in common and my friendship with them wont end just because you and I did.
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